Got these pictures from some random site. Anyways.

Mock exams. It’s important, it’s needed and it’s hell. It’s exactly the same as real exams. EXCEPT, mock exams are NOT the real deal.

So we’re studying for mocks right now, cus I’m in Form 5. And In Hong Kong, the policy strictly says that Form 5s must take an exam called HKCEEs. To add to the horror, next year will be the last year for HKCEEs to be carried out. And after that, they’re changing the WHOLE DANG EDUCATION SYSTEM. I won’t even bother explaining THAT.

Well, mock exams are stupid actually. I don’t even feel the pressure (even though I’m pretty much doing badly on them >.>). But yeah. It’s annoying. I can’t even concentrate or let alone study at home, therefore I sit myself int he school library almost everyday. It’s irritating to have to actually sit there on your ass for like the whole day. No wonder students these days are getting bigger asses. D: (I’m just kidding by the way, but I’m not kidding for me).

I just can’t wait for the mocks and the CEs to be OVER and DONE WITH. Cus I just want my 3 months of freedom and REAL good night sleeps please.

Well, I’m on facebook. Looking at all these photo albums of sweet sixteen parties & surprise birthday parties. Wish I could’ve gone to one. Or even have a surprise birthday lol. But let’s face it, I don’t know enough people to actually get invited or even have one. It’d end up only be like 4-5 people or whatever. Or I’m not confident in myself to actually have one?

I notice one thing in common in all these photos. Everyone’s looking gooood. With their clothes and all I look into my wardrobe, and I’m thinking: “I’ve been wearing this stuff for more than 2 years and most of them don’t look feminine at all.” Let’s face it, I’ve never actually gone out to look at feminine stuff. I don’t even like shopping cus I don’t even have enough on me anyway… I don’t like shopping cus I’m always thinking whether I should buy something, thinking “Oh it’s expensive/I might not even wear it” etc. So my clothes show that I don’t want to grow up, I don’t like exposing myself and I don’t like being feminine. But in a way, I want to be feminine… but not really at the same time. I just wish I could look presentable?

If I wore clothes that made me feel good, would it boost my confidence? Do I have to stick to one style? How does it all work? What exactly do I need to think about when buying clothes anyway? Whether if I just like it? Whether or not it suits me? Whether it looks trashy?

….D:

Front & Back Covers:

Tracklist:

00 – Message
01 – Fly
02 – Eternal Snow
03 – Breakaway
04 – Freak Out
05 – Aka no Seijaku
06 – Tattoo
07 – Someone’s Watching Over Me
bonus – Walk Away

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Yatta~! ^.^

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-Rayna Black.

We had a Drakronace meeting today. Drakronace is a group of beginner XCMers (Extreme Card Manipulation) and one person who is like, our teacher. He’s my boyfriend as well. Ahaha… And 2 years younger than me.

We were to go to his place and watch an XCM DVD. And his parents had a word with me for like half an hour about important personal things…

After all that, I’m worried. I hope they’re okay with me. >.<; I haven’t met them even after 1 whole year being with the guy I love lol… Well, actually, there are things I can’t explain which have been extremely tough. I can’t believe I’ve gotten this far. Maybe in time, I can actually get my parents to be friends with his even after some rough things in the past. I hope I hope. I was so scared LOL. I hope they accept me. ^^; And I also hope there can be some improvements for everything. PLEASEEEEEE. >3<

Anyways. I better go. Ehe. See you later.

-Rayna Black.

I’d like to show you guys one of my little kitties by the way. ;D They’re so kawaii~!

Aniyaaa~ Kawaii ^3^ Chuu*

-Rayna B.

Thank god. I think now, I have been released from their grasp. I think I’m better off a lone wolf. I feel so much more free. I feel like they’ve been so posessive over me- I couldn’t do anything I wanted!

Well, one of them said they hated me- I don’t blame them. But… I can’t help but feel a little more better. Weird right? I think I’m evil. But I’m not! If you told me to write out a story about what happened, I would. Unfortunately, I’m too lazy and often forget important events… maybe they’re not important after all, if I actually forgot them. Pfft.

I’m at school now. Such an odd place to blog. For me that is. I’m always at home on my PC. I’m always on the computer. I should get a better hobby.

By the way, I’m thinking of posting some of my crap (singing stuff) on wordpress. What you think? Oh well, it’s not like anyone comes past here. xD

…

Yeah.

-Rayna Black.

First, reasons why I started this blog in the first place, I told myself that I should get out there and start curing myself or something. Because let’s face it. I’M SUCH A SELF-CONCIOUS PERSON. I didn’t realise how bad this was until this year, when I turned 15. I decided it was time to face it. FACE IT. Dammit. So let’s see if this works. Don’t know if people will read it, but I want to try this out, see if I can get a little bit more confident with myself. Cus I’m a real baby, I’m too scared to speak out… SEE. There I go again. HAH. I crack myself up. ._.;;

Because did you know? I’m someone who wants to be in the entertainment industry. And in my current state, I just couldn’t. Yeah, I know you didn’t know that. Now I’m telling you. Anyway.

At the mo’, I’m having my exams at school. I’m supposed to be friggin’ studying for accounting right now, but I feel the need to write something first. I HATE ACCOUNTING. Tomorrow I have an exam on math. Two papers. And then accounting in the afternoon. I JUST WANT IT TO END.

I better go and kill my books now. I’m out. Awesome introduction, I must say. Agreed? -SARCASTIC->P

Rayna Black.